Remodel!

So, my inlaws are here for 3 weeks. Yes...THREE wks. Lol. I do have to say that they are helping a lot in many areas which is really rather lovely.

They have finished repainting the kitchen. Started the living room and will be completing the mosaic ceramic backsplash this weekend. They put up the Xmas lights outside and have provided T with much entertainment. I love how they tire her out :)

My Princess is one in need of people. She loves having them around her. In the house. It makes her happy. When I think about it, it makes perfect sense. She was born in a room full of people, she came home and my mother stayed a week. The next week, my inlaws came for 2, then my sister in law for another week then friends and family were around all of the time. So of course, she loves when there is noise in the background and people to play with.

She is such a gentle soul. And usually a happy child. She has her testy moments for sure and I hate that I am not patient enough at times. I feel beyond guilty for not controlling my frustration at times and I become afraid of turning out like my father...I know...but the fear is still very much there. According to the shrink, this means that I will not be like him. The thought of a hair on her head being even remotely pulled makes me sick to my stomach. Don't get me wrong, I never, EVER get the urge to physically or mentally hurt her but it scares me that I raise my voice...

I have 2 meetings tomorrow, one on monday and probably another on tuesday. I don't talk about them because I am afraid to jinx them. Dumb but humour me. So in the remodelling rage, I went out and bought myself an outfit for the first time in...2 years maybe. It's not gorgeous, and certainly not a size 6 which pisses me the hell off but it will do.

Maybe monday morning, I will splurge and get my hair done before heading out. We're broke but what are you gonna do heh.

If only Lyposuction came in bulk at WalMart or something teeehee.

And here ends my pointless post of the evening. Time to get my ass into bed and attempt to sleep without stressing HA! Think of me.